I'm incredibly insecure about EVERYTHING, but at the same time I feel like I'm better than everyone. If I mess up in school somehow when I'm trying then I doubt my abilities. I'm also really insecure about my body. I used to tell myself "At least I only hate some things about myself." but the more I look at myself the more I find that I hate EVERYTHING about myself. I'm fat, short, hairy, and I'm just generally an ugly person. I used to starve myself and while I still hated myself at least people liked me better back then. People would tell me how I looked skinny and strangers would compliment me. I feel worse then ever. I felt so much better when I was starving myself. It feels like everyone is pointing out my flaws all the time. I don't even know why people talk to me. I'm not funny, pretty, or reliable. It's not like I hate myself, but I do feel uncomfortable with my body. The worst of it is that I don't want to get better. I just wanna get what I want. I just want to be pretty.
